Memoirs of a Sub Slut: October 2012

Alone again, wondering, craving, lonely.
Master removed Sir's rights to use me, due to the rules being broken and Sir not being able to make a session.
That is His right to do i guess, as a sub i will do as i am told and understand that everything He does is for my sanity, my safety and my well being.
In my time loaned (one session and a few days) i did indeed learn things, so all in all this exercise did do as it was meant to, taught me.

THINGS I HAD TO DO
- submit to another Sir
- have my nails done and painted red
- pose for pictures both in underwear and naked
- wear clothes i was advised to wear
- be available to chat at a designated time
- complete tasks two nights in a row and send photos of those tasks.

WHAT I HAVE LEARNED
- to not take my Master for granted because He says He will not allow something. He does and did change His mind when He feels fit.
- to dress the part because it has been ordered
- to say no!
- to always speak up if a line is crossed (i did not do this and have learned from it now the hard way)
- to look after myself, to do my nails and be presentable
- to rest and relax after a session to get the most out of it
- to video absolutely everything
- that another Dom will never fill the hole of Master and that missing Him is part of this painful process.

Being loaned out was hot, kinky, scary, exciting and very objectifying.
I loved the fact that Master loaned me out, i was very wet with anticipation before both of the sessions with Master T (Sir) unfortunately only one session went through and i am very dissapointed the second was cancelled i was very much looking forward to a little punishment and erotic pain.

Home safe and behaving,His SS

Stand in Dom

A message tone startled me and my nerves hit the roof, He was here.

Down stairs and waiting for me to escort Him up.

My Mind racing going over all of the demands set by Sir, freshly shaved body, matching underwear and most importantly Masters order, Camera ready to record the session and my task to give Sir a blowjob and record it, then follow with my first session with another Dom if all felt ok.

A quick hello and smile was said and then i lowered my eyes and lead Sir into my home. Offering Sir a drink i noticed my hands shaking and my palms sweating i was so nervous.

With a cold drink for Sir i set off into my bedroom where He stood waiting.

Sir told me i could trust Him and spoke to me softly and friendly, this put me off a little as i am not used to being treated softly and gently by guests.

Standing in front of Sir, not sure what to do where to look or what to say i nodded and politely listened and responded when asked any questions, Sir kissed me sensually and softly a few times, i think trying to gain my confidence and trust.

Knowing this was wrong i still complied, from here Sir had me stand and sit for photos of me in my underwear.

Once down to my black lace bra and boy leg underwear Sir stood in front of me and ordered me to feel His swollen cock through His jeans whilst He pinched and twisted my nipples.

Feeling Sir’s hard swollen cock i could feel my pussy getting moist and my clit throbbing, i was still nervous but horny now too, wanting and hoping to feel Sirs hard cock inside me.

“Undo my pants” Sir ordered and promptly i unbuckled His brown leather belt, wondering if that was the belt he mentioned strapping another sub with a few days before?

Unbuttoning Sirs jeans and slowly lowering His fly i waited instructions, very eager to have His huge cock inside my mouth i waited patiently.

“Put your hands around my cock” Sir said and then took photos of my hands with new bright red painted nails wrapped around His cock, without being told i started to suck His cock. Remembering sucking it previously in a session with Master i knew to suck deep and slow.

The flash of the camera as He took photos of me with his cock in my mouth was a reminder that i was doing this to show it off for Master so i decided to look into the camera so my Master could see how keen and comfortable His girl is with a mouth full off cock.

Instructed to lay on my back i did as i was told, Sir climbed on the bed beside me and told me to trust Him.

He tied my wrists to the bed with soft purple bondage rope, i asked for my blindfold and collar as i know Master wanted me in His collar at all times during sessions with Sir.

Sir placed my collar around my neck and the blindfold over my eyes, i felt my nipples pinched and twisted. And then heard the order “suck it” i opened my mouth and found my way to Sirs cock, He was kneeling over my face and pushing His hard cock down my throat, i could feel His fingers inside me exploring my insides, a finger and then two, three and then i am sire there were 4 fingers inside me pumping in and out of my slutty cunt, it felt good, really good, all i could think about was being thrashed and wanting to feel His cock ram inside of me. And that is exactly what happened next, Sir removed his cock from my mouth, and left me laying in the darkness of the blindfold, my clit throbbing and the only sound was the rustling through a bag, where Sir was getting a condom from.

Sir placed the condom over his hard cock, ordered me to spread my legs open and climbed over me on to the bed where he held my legs and slid his cock inside me.

Fucking me both slowly and fast i moaned and moved my body with His.

Sir fucked me until He came into the condom inside me, This is the second rule broken in my first session submitting to another Dom.

(It is important that i confirm here that i did not give consent to the cumming inside me and did not know it was happening until it happened, it is a rule that i follow very seriously and i would never do this to my Master on purpose)

“fuck i am cumming, i wanted to cum in your mouth” Sir said. I tensed up, Sir told me to cum for him, i tried but i just couldn’t let go.

Sir finished fucking me pulled out and went to tidy up.

Laying on the bed still tied up i caught my breath and waited for Sir to return, He untied me and removed my blindfold and allowed me to get up and dressed and then had me sit on the bed where W/we chatted about Master and my relationship, how i was missing him and how i felt about Him being away.

Sir told me a few things i could very highly relate to that were very common to my life prior to being Masters submissive, He also told me of a punishment he had given another of His subs.

The topic of punishment with his sub made me nervous and with that i stayed tight lipped about my issue of Him cumming inside me, i avoided talk about it because i did not want to make Sir angry at me or to punish me the same way.

After talking for a while Sir was in the mood to use me again so He ordered me to remove my top and to kneel in front of Him and rub his cock through His jeans, i did as i was ordered.

Sir ordered me to sit on the edge of my bed where He stood over me and had me remove His pants again.

Once Sir had his camera out and was filming me suck his hard cock i relaxed knowing Master would enjoy the video.

After a while of deep throating Sir and having photos taken i was ordered to remove my clothes and to lay face down on my bed with my legs spread with my right hand placed over the back of my head and my left hand beside my head.

Sir climbed over me on my bed and kneeled between my legs ordering me to get into a doggy type position He slid into me making me moan out loud feeling stretched and full of Sirs cock.

Sir ordered me to lay flat and to close my legs; i have never been in a flat position like this before with my legs closed tight.

Sir lay on my back and slid His rock hard cock into me driving it in and out slow and fast, pumping my slutty submissive pussy with his hard cock and filling me with every thrust.

Moaning and taking His hard cock i laid still with my hands where they were place, Sir begun to bite my neck and shoulders hard and fucked me fast, i think i remember being slapped on the arse once or twice, i was lost in a moaning quivering state having my pussy pounded and knowing that this was a Dom my Master had chosen to use me as he pleased.

Feeling used, dirty, kinky, submissive and objectified i enjoyed being used as a sex toy and let my inhibitions go.

Sir pulled out of me and told me to get up and sit on the end of the bed, i was disappointed the thrashing ended but very excited for a load of warm cum.

Sucking Sirs cock and holding my camera i sat on the edge of the bed excited and so turned on that i was about to receive the first load of cum i would swallow from my step in Sir.

Sir shoved his cock into my mouth and came, i sucked him clean looked up at the camera, swivelled cum around my tongue and swallowed Sirs load of hot cum, straight after returning my slutty mouth to clean up Sirs cock and suck it both clean and dry.

Masters Sub Slut

This was my first session without my Master, i was scared and nervous, sad and anxious but at the same time excited as all hell and dripping wet.

What did i expect? I expected pain and a lot of bondage.

What did i receive? I received a good fucking and the confidence to serve another.

What do i want? I want more bondage and the chance to make more videos to make my Master happy and i want to feel comfortable enough to not be shy and to be the kinky slutty sub that i am for my Master, i want to NOT have choices i want for my MASTER to give me orders and tasks and to make sexual choices for me i want MASTER to take more control and to tell me what it is i should do.

What am i willing to do? I am willing to do whatever i am told from my Master.

Sir was not permitted to cum inside me regardless of the condom and i was given a task to blow Sir before W/we had O/our first session. i do know what i have done is wrong and very hurtful towards Master and i do expect to be punished for this when Master returns. And with punishment i will not complain at all as i do believe i have very much disappointed my Master and deserve whatever punishment He feels fit.