Betrayal

Betrayal

Day 4 of sexpo, the last day before everyone goes home and the show is over. I was jealous and insecure of the person i hired to work with me, She is 35 losing more weight than me and recently fucking around she gave a guy a blow job in the front of her car last week and kept talking about it, she was so very pleased with herself. Nice hair nice clothes, flirting and getting acquainted with my security guard friends who i have always been close to.

So there i was not as hot, everyone knowing i was about to get married so not flirting with me and yeah pretty much feeling like “old spice”. She made a comment to me saying that i should stand down because “cougars” are the in thing. I got insecure and my blood was boiling and i felt like i really was nothing i felt transparent my fiancé was flirting with everyone for the last 3 days and my boyfriend was having a better time watching shows then talking to me over the weekend even after i practically begged for sexual messages i didn’t seem to be able to get his attention.

I purposely looked for centre security guards to flirt with knowing they weren’t with my company and did not know my back ground. So they would flirt back not caring of my upcoming wedding.

I found one eyeing me out and decided he would do so i did all of the smile and hang around flirting crap that leads to getting chased with attention.

He asked if i was from around Brisbane i replied with no here for a good time not a long time he asked if i was in a relationship and i replied with why do you want a piece of me a cheeky grin and walked back to my working position. From that point on he came over to chat to me and winked and smiled at me for the next few hours. I started packing up my computers and was about to head inside to sign off and say good bye and he asked for my umber and if I’m in Brisbane for long i told him my number and said he has 5 hours to use it. I told him i was broken with a period but my mouth worked fine. With that i went inside and clocked off and only communicated with him through messages.

One of his messages was saying that the chick i was working with told him I’m getting married and had a bf and that he shouldn’t get involved with me so with that i replied yes i have a fiancé and a bf who is my Dom he didn’t understand the Dom concept so i said He is my
Master He controls me and i love it. I also wrote I’m dead serious about my mouth being in working order meet me at the after party in front of the old loose bitch and I’ll give you a blowjob in your car!

I have been told to write this blog by my Master who i am hoping still wants me He told me to write every detail and that i have and will this will get me in further trouble and hurt Him more seeing that i had offered a blow job before asking Him. I did honestly not intend on going through with it before talking to my Master i would have backed out before hand i tried to call my Master 4 times before the actual response with the meet me at the party text but He my Master was ignoring me as a punishment due to giving Him cheek over texts earlier where i was once again trying to get His attention.

I called my Master again on the way to the chick’s hotel room where we were getting ready for the after party and he finally picked up and i discreetly asked for permission to blow someone, He said only if i record it or take pictures.

Tom texted me and asked for directions to the after party i responded with directions and my phone battery died at 10pm. I wasn’t sure if he would turn up as id not been on my phone to see anything more. The chick and i went to the after party and as i was doing my rounds talking to workers tom came up to me and started chatting the chick looked at us talking and i could see the disappointment that she had not got in the way on her face i grinned at her and excused myself for 20 minutes where tom drove us down the road into a dark car park.

He asked me how my relationships worked and i told him i didn’t want to get into my life or any info and that i was just a slutty girl who got off on giving oral i asked him if he would take pics of me giving him a blow job and he said no he didn’t want to he wasn’t into pics and he was shy and uncomfortable with camera use sexually. I know i should have said i won’t do it then i know i should have told him earlier and i know i shouldn’t have been there.

I told him oh ok he asked to make out and i told him i didn’t want to as it ruins the whole dirty cum whore fantasy i have so we laid his chair back and i took out his uncut cock and sucked it. I felt like a dirty slut and sucked his cock he held my head down and throat fucked me making me vomit on his cock a little i deep throated him and sucked him for about 20 minute until he came after about ten minutes of sucking toms cock i couldn’t stop my mind from thinking and the sensation my mouth and teeth get when I’m so drug fucked i actually got bored and was over it instantly pretty much this is when you know i feel bad it isn’t often i don’t enjoy giving oral but i just slipped from a dirty horny slut mood to a guilty whore mood.

To get it over and done with and return to the after party i got my tits out and let him feel them as he told me in a text earlier he was a huge fan of my tits i told him i was a nasty cum slut and told him how much i loved cum and wanted his i deep throated to the point of gagging and tears then let him thrash my face until he exploded in my mouth. I swallowed his cum said yum and sat up. He went to relax and lay back and i said hey i want you to take me back now he responded with lets hang out for a few mins and get to know each other and i told him i did not want to get to know him that i was just a cum whore and that i wanted to go back to the party he said ok and took me back to the after party.

When he was outside the after party he told me he had an awesome time and that he would text me later i replied with you don’t need to and thanks for the ride i smiled and walked off back to the party where i finished all of my drugs which was at least 3 times too much got blind drunk and couldn’t wait to go home. When i got home i put my phone on charge hoping that my Master would assume i didn’t do it and i could tell Him in person when i got home to Sydney.

Master asked the question i could not deny or avoid the question so i lied saying pics were taken by tom and would be emailed to my phone.

I left it as that and today i owned up and told Master the truth and this is where it has been left.

A blog entry that will determine my future with my MASTER.

I’m scared I’m sorry and I’m disappointed in myself. I feel terrible and i afraid i have or will be dumped.

I don’t know what to do i did all of this to spite another person who means nothing in the end

I’m a pathetic excuse for a sub.

I’m sorry