Canberra trip.

Packing my bags and preparing for a special weekend, just the two of U/us going away for a weekend i messaged Sir. "What toys would you like me to bring along, and what toys are Your favourite?" Sir responded " Bring your favorite toys and make sure you have your blindfold, collar and shackles. He then told me that my mind and body were His favorite toys to play with"
I love it when He calls me His toy, i feel so objectified.
After thinking about it a while I packed black bondage rope, a glass dildo,  a simple lifelike vibrator and O/our vampire gloves.

To be continued

Not quite a walk in the park.

After a long hot shower i walked into Sir's loungeroom to find my collar and shackles on Sir's lounge.

Sir ordered me to put them on, and after doing so nervously He shackled my hands behind my back.

Sir made me stand up and face the wall. i was just standing in the corner face to the wall feeling objectified and humiliated and than wham, Sir flogged me hard five times "to get me in the mood of things"

It hurt and shocked me, i was scared and close to crying, just wondering and fearing what was to come next.

Sir then said" And this is how you will spend the rest of the night", annoyed and frustrated i replied "what in the corner?"

He laughed and responded with "no restrained.'

Sir then explained to me that i would spend the rest of the night in shackles.

i actually loved the idea.

Sir guided me to a spot on the floor next to the lounge and had me sit down, every now and then He would pinch and twist my nipples until i squeeled (i think Sir likes the sound)

After a couple of hours of being shackled on the floor by sir's side while we watched TV (Don't worry Sir was comfortably laying on the lounge ) W/we could hear a big storm brewing outside with a lot of thunder, close lightning and heavy rain.

Feeling uncomfortable i made a little comment to Sir about it being gay that i was bound up and Sir then reacted by choking me.

Usually i enjoy choking , but being shackled up and completely helpless it really scared me. However at the same timeas usual i was dripping wet.

After struggling to get away Sir came behind me and held me by my wrist shackles and choked me, He had me in a position so i could not struggle and then once Sir had enough He lifted me and dug my face into the lounge, Sir then held His shoulder against my back while holding on to my collar, pressing His weight against me and holding me into place while using His other arm He touched me very rough and cruedly unlike His usual self.

Playing with my clit and then finger fucking me very hard, i felt like Sir was rapeing me with His fingers.

To begin with i complained, but that didnt last long as i started enjoying it big time, i even tried to move so i could grind myself along Sir's fingers but i think W/we both enjoyed how much Sir was holding me down.

So turned on i asked Sir's permission to come and after making me hold on a while Sir said yes and i came trapped in that position with Sir's fingers deep inside me moaning loudly i covered my Masters fingers with my slutty submissive juices.

Suddenly Sir pulled His fingers out of me, stood up and left the room, i awkwardly got back onto my knees with my wrist still shackled behind me and waited quietly.

After a minute Sir returned holding a pair of my sneakers and a cheeky grin on His face.

Not allowing me out of my shackles Sir helped me to put my shoes on and i started to complain that if He took me out naked people would see me or i would get hit by lightening.

Sir didnt care He placed a rain jacket over my head and led me out on to the front porch, still undercover W/we were getting wetdue to the heavy rain, lightning was hitting close by and i was shaking scared cold and almost crying.

Sir grabbed me and lead me to the side of the balcony one story off the ground and kissed me pashionately, and there W/we stayed kissing for a while.

Sir's hand slid down my naked freezing side and prompted me to lift up one of my legs and as always i did immediately, Sir inserted His fingers and fingered me until i came standing with His other arm wrapped around me and still kissing me. IT WAS AMAZING.

The lightning just seemed to come closer and closer and i was really uneasy so Sir pulled me close and kissed me again, He lead me back inside and told me that because i was too afraid to go into the storm, i would now have to sleep in my shackles.

This time instead of being annoyed i was actually very happy and content to sleep in my shackles.

The Rainforest (sensory deprivation)

After spending about half an hour Vacuuming Sir’s lounge and dining room i had a relaxing luke warm shower, i spent a good while just relaxing feeling the water run over me and as usual made sure i was the cleanest i could be.

After my shower stepping into the lounge room i noticed a pile of thick black bondage rope laid out on the floor and my heart literally skipped a beat both nervous and excited i instantly knew W/we were going to have a session.

Laying on Sirs legs relaxed on the lounge watching as a movie ended He said in a gentle loving voice “Are you ready” and before i even realized my mouth was open i had replied with a “yes”, Prompting Him to respond with “Yes who”.

“Yes Sir” correcting myself a little quieter i replied and with that i was instructed to put on my Blindfold and collar.

“Come over here” Said Sir, so i shuffled toward Him on my knees.

Head down and silently kneeling between Sir’s legs i was still and nervous awaiting an order.

Sir bound up my body via my v neck collar into a tight full body harness with the new thick black soft rope, it felt great against my naked warm skin it made me feel worthy, more submissive, attractive even.

Every time Sir tightened the rope or leaned over me or reached around me my whole body tingled, excited i could feel myself getting warm and damp.

Instructed to lie on my back on a thick warm woolen blanket on the floor i could feel the harness tight wrapped around my body, i felt so submissive and owned, like a real slave girl.

Attaching my ankles and wrists with the same rope i had harnessed around me i was bound, my ankles stretched up beside me and then my wrists bound with them leaving me helplessly stretched open trapped and completely vulnerable.

Trapped on my back unable to move blinded by the pitch black darkness of the blindfold hearing nothing but my own heart pounding and my heavy nervous breathing i was shocked with the instant squeezing pain to my breasts as Master grabbed at them roughly.

i let out a loud cry trembling and holding back the first of what i suddenly realized might be many tears of the night.

And then out of a silent moment of relief from the breast torture i felt Sirs hand slap across my face and instantly the burning of my skin turning red, Sir knows this brings me out of the safe comfort zone and instantly into a submissive state.

Then it happened, my fear of abandonment as Sir left me laying there helpless, luckily He had only gone as far as the bathroom.

Hearing the shower turn on i relaxed and knew He wasn’t far and i knew He would not leave me.

After what felt like at least half an hour the sound and sting of Sirs riding crop brought me back and alert.

4 gentle taps and one harder slap of the riding crop and then 4 gentle taps and a whack of the cane (my worst enemy).

The noise the cane makes scares me almost as much as the instant burn it leaves on my skin.

Sir used His cane and crop on my thighs and my breast, i whimpered quietly and completely tensed up expecting a hard hit, but this session i was lucky and avoided one.

The next hit did not come, instead i heard Sir walk away over to his computer chair and sit down.

Busy worrying about how long i would be left this time i didn’t even notice the sound of Sir getting back up and coming toward me, i was startled by the quick and rough feeling of a pair of headphones playing loud nature forest sounds placed over my ears, deafening me of anything going on outside of them.

This would usually relax me to sleep but this time not allowing me to hear anything and the blind fold making everything pitch black scared me horribly and then the feeling of my pounding heart and my body quivering hiding any movement around me had me in complete frozen shock. Flogging from the dragon tail flogger whipped across my stomach followed by my breast my legs my pussy and my arms.

The headphones slipped off from my ears during my struggling long enough to hear a little.

The stinging warm sensation and the whooshing noise of the dragon tail put me into a teeth clenching space where i laid excited waiting for the next hit.

Knowing Sir would see that i could hear i nervously called out “Sir the head phones have slipped i am sorry” and before i could hear Sir Respond He had put them back on roughly making sure they would not fail Him again.

Jumping with a scare at the feeling of a small vibrator inserted into my dripping pussy was the moment i realized how scary this sensory deprivation experience could be.

It felt amazing; i could feel the mini vibrator glide right in and out just gliding over my own juices.

Sir left it there just sitting inside my pussy for a moment, leaving me to instantly panic imagining what was coming my way next?

Sir placed His 240 volt “insane crazy as i call it” vibrator on my clitoris just holding it there making me moan and groan and wiggle as much as i could.

Feeling it grind against my clit and my juices flow while my muscles contracted and my body burnt up i called out “Sir may i cum”. “can i please cum Sir please” but i couldn’t hear anything, i couldn’t hold it back either, so that was it i had to let go and i came and it was amazing and insane at once i couldn’t stop.

Multiple orgasms over and over, struggling as much as i could almost rocking side to side to stop the vibrations through my body, i had come so much that i was at a painful ticklish shaking mess stage then Sir just stopped.

Squealing as the stretching sting filled my exhausted pussy, i felt a large dildo rammed inside me and i screamed, at least i think i screamed, all i could hear were the noises of the rainforest, a waterfall and birds around me so loud it is all that filled my mind, so hypnotizing that and the rough brutal fucking of the large silicone cock pounding my insides.

Then Sir brought me out of that hypnotized state once again attacking my clitoris with His 240 volt vibrator, i am not sure what hurt more the rough pounding or how tight my muscles must have contracted around it as i came over and over again.

It was pushed so deep inside me but still, so i relaxed with the soothing sounds as i waited for it to be pulled out of my throbbing more than likely red and swollen pussy but instead i felt a sting around it piercing stabs around my pussy over my clitoris and back to the opening of my stretched open piece of fuck meat, Sir was playing with the pin wheel, and not softly either.

After terrorizing my flesh with the cold stainless steel piercing tool for a while both the large cock and pin wheel were removed. Sir pulled it out and i could feel a gush of my own warm juices flow out and down my ass between my cheeks and probably into a little puddle onto the soft woolen blanket beneath me.

My teeth and jaw ached from all of the biting down and clenching, i should have asked Sir to use a gag ball but i didn’t think of that then.

After a minute or two of complete sensory deprivation i felt it again, The first blow of the dragon tail i am sure i screamed out quite loudly, struggling and wiggling around as much as i could.

It made no difference at all i was completely helpless just trapped on my back being flogged i could feel my skin tingle and raise getting wetter and wetter i laid so excited and believe it or not happy and completely at peace.

After what felt like an hour of flogging i felt the cold sharp stabbing again as Sir ran the pin wheel across my nipples and up my chest towards my neck, i laid as still as i could and held my breath as Sir ran the pin wheel across my throat then back down to my nipples and then nothing, everything stopped.

Catching my breath i relaxed back into the rain forest sounds i could feel my breathing almost back to normal i was completely relaxed and winding down.

This time i was not able to scream or squeal as i felt the stretching sting and burning of a giant rubber cock roughly pushed into my pussy, i was in too much shock, saying to myself over and over “relax cunt muscles, relax cunt muscles and just take it” in my head.

This time the rubber cock was huge and by huge i mean 5” round and 13” in length just plunged into my swollen red throbbing fuck meat hole.

It burned and stung and stretched me right open, i love that pain.

Cumming as Sir fucked me with it i am sure the neighbours would have heard everything, but not me i was hearing the relaxing sounds of the rain forest.

After Cumming on Sir’s giant rubber pussy stretching cock He removed it slowly and once again i felt the warmth of my juices dripping out of my well used pussy.

Lying silently exhausted and almost drifting off to sleep Sirs warm soft hands wrapped around my throat and started choking me, my face felt like a balloon swelling about to burst my lungs strained and my wrists started to hurt badly due to me struggling so much through the rope, usually when Sir chokes me i have my hands to struggle with.

Breathless with the most painful of headaches and seeing almost a flashing light in darkness i managed a silent “red” and Sir stopped about a second before i blacked out.

After a minute or two of catching my breath Sir removed the headphones and asked me “Are you ok” in His soft and gentle voice, i nodded yes and He untied my wrist and ankles allowing me to sit up.

Crawling over to Sir, now sitting on the lounge i cuddled into His stomach as He untied my body harness slowly and gently, then as always i felt His warm soft hands run across my back just caressing me lovingly, giving me tingles and butterflies in my stomach.

A lucky girl, i certainly am

SirsSubslut

THIS SESSION WAS DIFFERENT FOR US BOTH, IT WAS THE FIRST TIME WE HAD USED FULL SENSORY DEPRIVATION AND IT WAS A BIG IMPACT.

I WAS SAD TO HAVE THE BODY HARNESS REMOVED AS I FEEL REALLY GOOD IN IT.

THE PAIN IMPACT WAS REALLY HIGH FOR ME THIS SESSION HOWEVER THAT WAS VERY MUCH INCREASED VIA THE SENSORY DEPRIVATION.

I LOVE OUR LIFE TOGETHER, I LOVE YOU SIR XXX

Positve feedback :)

Hi,

I chatted to you about 6 to 9 months ago about your situation and what it's all about as I was experimenting in this area....you referred me to a site or blog you used to write and it was a great revelation to how beautiful and exciting this world can be... 

I live in Canberra and this has made my quest difficult .

I had a wonderful sub for 5 months which is why I haven't been on here since before Christmas.
I have met a total of 3 subs in here and if I lived elsewhere would still be master of one...

 I am constantly excited by the variety of things that some subs are dedicated too ... 

Thank you as you have set me in a path that I truly enjoy.
You have a very lucky Master and you are lucky to have such a good Master to treat you as you should be.

I would really enjoy spending some time with you both when I can get up to Sydney...

Master G

Growing pains

Growing pains

-This is a different type of blog entry; it is not a gang bang or a guest spot to rim or blow.

This is for You Sir

-What i did was wrong and i regret upsetting the one Man that has given me all of the strength and confidence back in my life that so many others took from me, i do want to be Your girl and i will do anything to prove that.

-The punishment i know i deserved, the pain and the frustration i also believe i deserved.  And i do realize that no matter how hard the last seven days have been for me that they are and where worth it because i do feel i have learnt from this week.

-You might be happy to know i have learnt a whole lot more this week Sir, and i do want to change the way i think the way i talk and the way i seek revenge.

-This week Sir, You taught me that without respecting U/us and taking my position/role seriously i did not respect myself either.

-Here i am complaining about people that take BDSM for granted and assume it is a fifty shades of grey story fairy tale, and i contradicted myself totally by not taking my own lifestyle and Dom seriously.

-This week i learnt that no one ever gets away with lying because even if no one ever finds out, i still know and i will be disappointed in myself.

-This week i was reminded that the parts of me that can handle a stressful situation, change or hardship are not here or even part of me without You, You give me strength.

-When i am down a doctor can give me medicine and that doesn’t even help, yet You just say “Sunshine you are ok“and all of a sudden everything is ok again. You fix me, You help me. You know me.

-i took You for granted, i took U/us for granted and i took O/our lifestyle for granted and i am sorry.

-Dom/sub   You/me   Him/her - i will do better and i will not purposely try and upset You again.

-The last seven days i have been in hell with this punishment, but in the last seven days things have never been clearer.

-You are not in any way a pussy; You are the strongest Man i have ever met and the most caring.

- in 4 years You have been able to balance my life and save me from my everlasting never ending OCD fear factor story

- Sir you gave me until the time You get here today to finish my three blog entries, this entry now makes five

- i hesitated at the munch in Penrith when You ordered me to get out my toy and show people, i told you no! That is not fair on you and as a sub i think i deserve to be punished

- i was up to something Wednesday night and it was not nice, it is against the girl you want me to be, so i guess thats another thing you can punish me for, yes it is about her, and i will promise you i will keep it to my self.

- You make my world brighter, you make both me and my girl happier, i really do want to grow old with you

- And i love you for other reasons too :P

You will not like me when I am angry

There is no excuse for the wrongs i did; i am just a stupid girl learning slowly and these are my growing pains.

A submissive should know better than to do the things i do like to call my Master a pussy, or write the words Dom, Sir, BDSM or Master in full lowercase just to get a rise out of my Dom.

Master told me i had called Him a “pussy” three times, i had used lowercase twenty one times and then i went and had half of my head shaved.

Relaxing on the lounge having a few drinks W/we had just finished a delicious home cooked dinner that my Master cooked for U/us.

Everything was calm and relaxed, Sir threatened that i would be punished and that i wouldn’t like it.

But i guess being stupid again i thought maybe He did not mean it. (Talk about stupid a sub assuming... not a good move)

Sir started to clear the lounge room, He went into the room and walked out with O/our BDSM bags.

So very nervous, my heart hurt and instantly i regretted every little attention seeking trick i tried to pull for His attention.

Sir unrolled a yoga mat and placed it over a wooden table; i looked at it like it was a murder scene, scared of it.

Then went down a towel and to top off the nerves a plastic sheet.

Sir collected some baby oil from my house earlier that day and even know baby oil does not sound scary it had me really worried and nervous.

W/we placed another waterproof matt under the wooden table just in case baby oil got through i didn’t want to ruin the mat.

The table was set and so was Sir, He passed me my shackles, my black leather v neck collar and a black lamb’s wool blindfold.

Picking them up quickly and quietly i sat on the lounge, removed my clothes, put my hair up in a pony tail just how Sir likes it and put the collar and shackles on.

Then came the blindfold, i was having difficulty doing up the buckle with my new nails done, they are longer than usual so it was awkward.

Sir got cranky with me, “you have until
I count to ten or you will be slapped“trying to do the buckle up as fast as i can, i guess i was a second too slow.

Sir slapped me hard across the face and because i flinched and covered my face after, He slapped me again.

Burning and red is how my face felt and my jaw hurt, i was scared humiliated and already crying.

Sir ordered me to stand up and go with Him as He led me to the front of the table, where He helped me ease down and instructed me where to lie.

Flat on my back on top of a plastic sheet i was instructed to put my wrists down either side underneath the table where they were connected to a bar via the wrist shackles.

i asked Sir if i could please have a towel to place under the arch in my back to stop it from hurting, i forgot to say Sir.

“Who are you talking too” Sir said in an angry and strict tone? Sir slapped me again, this time on my thigh.

“i am sorry Sir can i please have a towel so my back doesn’t hurt please Sir“

Sir asked me if i deserved a towel, i murmured” i am sorry and please Sir”

He went out of the room and returned with a towel, W/we placed it under me in the arch of my back.

 Sir continued to tie down my ankles, They were connected to the legs of the table and to my wrist bondage, i felt trapped and scared i had a horrible feeling about tonight’s session.

Once Sir had me all tied down, He told me i was about to be punished and that i really wouldn’t not like it, Sir then stood over my bottom half quietly.

Listening as best i could i was trying to read the situation but it was soon very clear anyway.

A hot spraying sensation started over my pussy, then trailed up over my stomach, i could smell that it was urine.

It was hot and instantly an itchy stingy sensation, i started to cry.

Sir then pissed over my chest and finished up pissing on my face, in my hair and some even went in my nose, and that burnt really bad!

Crying and shaking, not knowing what to think and then just being covered in urine was horrible, i felt humiliated, objectified degraded and hurt.

Sir then went on to force me to suck His cock clean, i was crying more than i had before in a session.

It was uncontrollable and humiliating my emotions where so UN controllable.

One of my limits are canes, they hurt and they scare me, however i don’t think i ever put them down as a hard limit because i did not ever expect to need too. (Stupid sub, assuming again).

Sir  demanded  that i tell Him how many times i had messed up with lowercase when referring to Him as a Dom, i was really nervous and hoped i was right in saying twenty one times.

Sir told me that i was about to be punished and that i had to count my punishments and at every hit i would respond with the number and thank you Sir, usually Sir does this with a whip.

A huge hit and slapping noise hit my thigh and right with it i howled and cried out loud in pain. “one thank You Sir” i was in a lot of pain and was scared as i had just been hit hard with a cane, Whack “two, thank You Sir” my other thigh more tears and an equally loud cry. Whack “three thank You Sir” my breast was hit too.

Breast, thighs, stomach and pussy all canned, number one and number twenty were definitely the worst they were the hardest hits and the most sensitive areas.

Sir placed four pegs on my pussy and i screamed the moment they went on, it was genuine i was really in pain, my blindfold was soaking wet, i would say half piss half tears, this session was not going well for me at all.

The pegs hurt me to the point of crying Red.

Once i called Red Sir helped me and removed them from my pussy.

By the time Sir hit number twenty one i think my jaw was aching due to me clenching my teeth i really wish Sir had used a ball gag or something to protect my teeth.

Lying on a piss soaked table and sobbing like a baby i felt something very spiky along my chest.

Sir had His pin wheel out playing. That i thought was Hot, It is the best sensation on bound tits.

Sir took the pin wheel and used it along my body going from my breast to my nipples, my chest, my throat  which oddly turned me on and along the shaved sections of my head.

Every time i screamed i cried.

Sir went back down to the bottom end of the table and inserted a vibrator inside me He fucked me with it for a while until i was on the brink of Cumming and then used a larger size.

Again with the on the brink and then a larger size again, i remember hearing  Sir say “He had lost the biggest dildo W/we owned “and i felt instant relief.

Well that was not true Sir played with my mind there and then later on with my poor stretched pussy and that same lost rubber cock!

Within half an hour i think i was fucked with every toy i own, starting at small and ending with “yes you guessed it the biggest one”.

Every time Sir masturbated me or fucked me with a toy He stopped a few seconds before i came.

So many times i thought i was going to cum and not once did Sir let me.

Sir did not just insert the biggest dildo, He fucked me with it hard and deep, i felt so sore and swollen and walked funny the next day.

Sir continued to play with my clit and fuck me with toys, i was begging Him to let me cum, But Sir would not allow it.

Until Sir gave the option for me to let Him fuck my arse.  

And for that i would be allowed to cum, i could not do that so every time Sir got close enough with a vibrator to my arse i said Red.

For a few minutes things went quiet and i was trapped just laying there, Sir then came up beside my face and ordered me to open my mouth so He could piss in it, i was so upset by it that i called out Red again and Sir stopped.

Water sports and humiliation have never affected me so badly before, i have always enjoyed them and still do not really understand how Sir was able to turn them into a punishment.

After getting emotional and showing signs of a lot of pain Sir told me i had been in the bound position for about two hours and threatened to leave me for another hour or two while He worked on His computer.

Sir left me for a little, while he did something on his computer but it was not for too long thankfully.

Sir came back and asked me if i could take anymore i answered nervously with a no and then remembered “No” is not going to work with Sir or in BDSM.

So i called out “Red”.

Sir untied me and instructed me to clean the session area whilst He went for a shower; i jumped to it and did as much as i could as quick as i could so that Sir would be happier with me.

The moment i was untied i did not want to do another thing wrong.

The moment my blindfold was removed, i was too disappointed in myself to want to look my Master in His eyes and by the time Sir was out of His shower the lounge room was almost completely clean, all of Sir’s ropes where rolled up the towel, mat and plastic sheet picked up and the yoga mat put away.

Sir’s tools were put away and i was waiting for Sir to let me have a shower, i was really worried
He was not going to let me shower too as
W/we have spoken kinky about going to bed dirty before.

When Sir returned from His shower He asked if i was ok and once He knew i was He let me have a shower, i took all of O/our toys along with the blindfold shackles and collar and scrubbed them all in the shower to remove any urine.

There was a lot of crying this session, pain was high, but i think my nerves and shock factor where the main points, i was emotional, scared and shocked, i was also drenched and turned on, i almost came so many times, i was masturbated and fucked with O/our toys.

Humiliated and pissed on and usually i love all of those things.

Sir was right this was punishment and the worst part of the punishment was that the things i love

Sir doing to me for satisfaction can be used equally as punishment too.

Before this week i did not know that was possible.

Sir took away all of my sex toys and BDSM equipment, He took away my right to touch myself in masturbation and placed a no cum rule on me for seven days.

In the last week i have not broken a rule, i have taken this punishment very seriously.