HISgirl

this will be a different type of diary entry.
instead of detailing how tied up, used or wet i am.
i am going to tell you about this lifestyle for me.
i get to experience and stretch every boundary i know of or am introduced too.
i feel Masters presence even when He is not around.
i live knowing Master loves me enough to give me rules to keep me safe sane and secure.
i get hugged love and affection like i never knew possible.
i get to be tied up and used as a kinky fuck toy.
i get Masters time attention and love.
i get honesty safety and security of the Man of my dreams.
i get to learn i get to love i get to experience and play.
i the property of my Master feel like i am the luckiest girl in the world.


TO MY MASTER-DOM-PARTNER-LOVER AND BEST FRIEND.
i love and appreciate you more than words can express.
you make me so happy.
i love you xxxx
Your girl.

Betrayal

Betrayal

Day 4 of sexpo, the last day before everyone goes home and the show is over. I was jealous and insecure of the person i hired to work with me, She is 35 losing more weight than me and recently fucking around she gave a guy a blow job in the front of her car last week and kept talking about it, she was so very pleased with herself. Nice hair nice clothes, flirting and getting acquainted with my security guard friends who i have always been close to.

So there i was not as hot, everyone knowing i was about to get married so not flirting with me and yeah pretty much feeling like “old spice”. She made a comment to me saying that i should stand down because “cougars” are the in thing. I got insecure and my blood was boiling and i felt like i really was nothing i felt transparent my fiancé was flirting with everyone for the last 3 days and my boyfriend was having a better time watching shows then talking to me over the weekend even after i practically begged for sexual messages i didn’t seem to be able to get his attention.

I purposely looked for centre security guards to flirt with knowing they weren’t with my company and did not know my back ground. So they would flirt back not caring of my upcoming wedding.

I found one eyeing me out and decided he would do so i did all of the smile and hang around flirting crap that leads to getting chased with attention.

He asked if i was from around Brisbane i replied with no here for a good time not a long time he asked if i was in a relationship and i replied with why do you want a piece of me a cheeky grin and walked back to my working position. From that point on he came over to chat to me and winked and smiled at me for the next few hours. I started packing up my computers and was about to head inside to sign off and say good bye and he asked for my umber and if I’m in Brisbane for long i told him my number and said he has 5 hours to use it. I told him i was broken with a period but my mouth worked fine. With that i went inside and clocked off and only communicated with him through messages.

One of his messages was saying that the chick i was working with told him I’m getting married and had a bf and that he shouldn’t get involved with me so with that i replied yes i have a fiancé and a bf who is my Dom he didn’t understand the Dom concept so i said He is my
Master He controls me and i love it. I also wrote I’m dead serious about my mouth being in working order meet me at the after party in front of the old loose bitch and I’ll give you a blowjob in your car!

I have been told to write this blog by my Master who i am hoping still wants me He told me to write every detail and that i have and will this will get me in further trouble and hurt Him more seeing that i had offered a blow job before asking Him. I did honestly not intend on going through with it before talking to my Master i would have backed out before hand i tried to call my Master 4 times before the actual response with the meet me at the party text but He my Master was ignoring me as a punishment due to giving Him cheek over texts earlier where i was once again trying to get His attention.

I called my Master again on the way to the chick’s hotel room where we were getting ready for the after party and he finally picked up and i discreetly asked for permission to blow someone, He said only if i record it or take pictures.

Tom texted me and asked for directions to the after party i responded with directions and my phone battery died at 10pm. I wasn’t sure if he would turn up as id not been on my phone to see anything more. The chick and i went to the after party and as i was doing my rounds talking to workers tom came up to me and started chatting the chick looked at us talking and i could see the disappointment that she had not got in the way on her face i grinned at her and excused myself for 20 minutes where tom drove us down the road into a dark car park.

He asked me how my relationships worked and i told him i didn’t want to get into my life or any info and that i was just a slutty girl who got off on giving oral i asked him if he would take pics of me giving him a blow job and he said no he didn’t want to he wasn’t into pics and he was shy and uncomfortable with camera use sexually. I know i should have said i won’t do it then i know i should have told him earlier and i know i shouldn’t have been there.

I told him oh ok he asked to make out and i told him i didn’t want to as it ruins the whole dirty cum whore fantasy i have so we laid his chair back and i took out his uncut cock and sucked it. I felt like a dirty slut and sucked his cock he held my head down and throat fucked me making me vomit on his cock a little i deep throated him and sucked him for about 20 minute until he came after about ten minutes of sucking toms cock i couldn’t stop my mind from thinking and the sensation my mouth and teeth get when I’m so drug fucked i actually got bored and was over it instantly pretty much this is when you know i feel bad it isn’t often i don’t enjoy giving oral but i just slipped from a dirty horny slut mood to a guilty whore mood.

To get it over and done with and return to the after party i got my tits out and let him feel them as he told me in a text earlier he was a huge fan of my tits i told him i was a nasty cum slut and told him how much i loved cum and wanted his i deep throated to the point of gagging and tears then let him thrash my face until he exploded in my mouth. I swallowed his cum said yum and sat up. He went to relax and lay back and i said hey i want you to take me back now he responded with lets hang out for a few mins and get to know each other and i told him i did not want to get to know him that i was just a cum whore and that i wanted to go back to the party he said ok and took me back to the after party.

When he was outside the after party he told me he had an awesome time and that he would text me later i replied with you don’t need to and thanks for the ride i smiled and walked off back to the party where i finished all of my drugs which was at least 3 times too much got blind drunk and couldn’t wait to go home. When i got home i put my phone on charge hoping that my Master would assume i didn’t do it and i could tell Him in person when i got home to Sydney.

Master asked the question i could not deny or avoid the question so i lied saying pics were taken by tom and would be emailed to my phone.

I left it as that and today i owned up and told Master the truth and this is where it has been left.

A blog entry that will determine my future with my MASTER.

I’m scared I’m sorry and I’m disappointed in myself. I feel terrible and i afraid i have or will be dumped.

I don’t know what to do i did all of this to spite another person who means nothing in the end

I’m a pathetic excuse for a sub.

I’m sorry

After party fun!

After party fun!

After a big night out to dinner and a catch up with friends where i got very drunk, i went to bed where my Master was waiting for me i was extremely horny and frustrated.

My Master was tired so he put his arms around me and told me i had to sleep.

The next morning Master started playing with my clit teasing me and bringing me so close to an orgasm then stopping.

Then repeating until i was so exited i was a shuttering mess. Master gave me permission to come.

And then again a second orgasm, i asked Master for a session and at first He said no because we were not alone in the house.

Disappointed i tried to change His mind and He still said we couldn't so i decided to crawl under the blankets where i started sucking His cock instead.

Master ordered me to beg him for a session while sucking his cock i begged like a dirty little slut “please use me please use me in a session”.

Master ordered me to get up and to get my session bag and to turn the light on. i did as i was told after hesitating with the lights as i was not feeling very confident with my body but i did as a good sub should and i followed Masters orders.

i brought the BDSM bag to bed and Master ordered me to put my collar, shackles and blindfold on i did so straight away.

i was told to kneel on the bed i did so promptly replying with “yes Sir” and then felt a cold glass dildo placed between my legs then placed inside me, i was to hold it in while Master bound my breast, this was very tight and painful. He slapped my face three times and pinched and slapped my breast this Hurt quite a bit.

i was then ordered to turn around where my bottom was spanked once and i was bent over onto my hands and knees and fucked hard and fast with the glass dildo.

With permission from Master i came all over the drenched glass dildo.

Master pulled it out and made me suck my juices from it my juices were sweet and warm i felt like a dirty little piece of fuck meat sucking the juices all up.

The dildo was then re inserted and Master ordered my hands behind my back where He shackled them together.

my full weight was on my bound breast it hurt a lot but i love it so much.

Master laid beneath my legs and licked my clit as He fucked me with the glass dildo it was amazing i came a couple of times i was so excited i forgot all about the pain of my breast.

Master then whipped my ass repeatedly i was nervous knowing that others would be able to hear it in the next room but exited and turned on by the noise too.

After spanking me Master rolled me over on to my back and played with my clit whilst pinching the flesh around my clit and pussy while making me cum.

Master spat in my face a couple of times making me feel like a real dirty little slut.

In the darkness of my blindfold my tensions raised as i felt Master get up and get something, He returned and i felt Him rubbing lube onto my pussy instantly i got nervous and tensed up.

Masters Fingers worked into my pussy one at a time following His thumb, my pussy was stretched for a while and played with until my muscles relaxed.

Master then squeezed His fist inside me as far as He could get it.

W/we still haven’t got it all the way but that is not for lack of trying.

Master also licked my stretched clit while having His hand inside my stretched cunt it was burning and swelling so bright and red.

Master licked my clit until i came over His hand i even squirted a little it was very wet and messy so hot just how i love it.

Master then tried to fuck me but i was too wet and slippery so instead He put toys inside my swollen red raw pussy while making me rub my clit and masturbate while being fucked by them.

After cumin again Master had me Suck his cock while using a vibe on his balls and the outside of His ass, It is the first time i have done this to Him and i got drenched with excitement. Master made me talk dirty until He came i

Caught the whole of His load in my mouth and was Ordered to keep it there while Master licked my clit again until i came i was also forced to call myself a dirty cum swallowing whore while i swallowing Masters load and cumming at same time.

Master then Cuddled me in His warm loving arms.

End of session

THROUGHOUT THIS SESSION I FELT DIRTY AND SLUTTY I WAS TURNED ON BY THE FACT PEOPLE WHERE IN THE NEXT ROOM AND COULD HEAR ME BEING USED AND ABUSED.

I LOVE BEING MY MASTERS FUCK MEAT.

Frustration fixture task

Frustration fixture task

Master asked me over a text message if i was still horny (as i have been suffering hyper sexuality lately) i responded with yes why. To my surprise the response i was given was a task.

Not only a task but a task i did not expect to be trusted with alone.

The task was to go out alone without Master, find a net guy to meet me and allow me to give them oral make them cum, show off their cum by playing with it and swallow their cum on camera, if the task was done properly my reward would be an allowance to fuck them.

All of the net guys we were in contact with on AMM were not up for the challenge where not online or where just plain pussys so instead i asked a net guy i had been friends with for a while, he said yes and we proceeded.

Ray booked a motel room and we met up there, we chatted for a while which is something that i am not permitted to do,i explained the task to ray a second time and then i asked ray to remove his pants and to hold my camera and record me.

He laid back on the motel bed and i climbed between his legs and took his cock in my mouth and gently sucked on it until it hardened in my mouth, i checked the camera a couple of times making sure it was recording at all times and continued to suck.

ray was exited and grabbed me by the hair pushing my head down onto his cock and keeping me at a rhythm he enjoyed, he slapped my tongue with his cock and moaned as i continued to suck it.

Making sure to look up at the camera and grin from time to time i continued sucking until i tasted sweet warm pre cum, i stuck out my tongue for the camera and played around with it.

Ray had hold of my hair again having me suck him deep and fast i felt the vein along the bottom of his cock thicken knowing he was about to shoot a load of hot juicy cum i opened my mouth and stuck my tongue out so he could shoot it all over it, i moaned and grinned knowing i was being a hot slutty submissive girl for my Master and a hot experience for ray. I swirled his cum around and played with it took a few photos and sent them on to Master.

I felt dirty and nasty like a cheap little cum whore. I was horny but declined my option to fuck ray, i felt like fucking him would be too much i was happy and pleased with the task i did and the fact that my Master trusted me to do it. That satisfied me enough without sex.

I called Master and saved the video footage he called me a nasty girl and i smiled.

I smiled because i know it i love it and i crave it.

After all i am my Masters nasty dirty sub slut.

Hotel gangbang fail!

Hotel gangbang fail!

Master wanted me gangbanged so W/we once again tried to arrange a gang bang and booked a room at the novotel, W/we got dressed up and went to dinner.

Returning to O/our room after dinner i was ordered to remove my clothes and place my blindfold collar and shackles on, i was then taken across the room and locked inside the hotel wardrobe.

The collar was attached to a cable tied to a fixture keeping me in the one position kneeling on knees and back straight with head in the air and my wrist shackled together behind me.

I could hear banging and movement through the wardrobe doors this startled me and scared me with tensions building and eventually after what felt like at least an hour i heard the door knock and Master allowing someone to enter O/our hotel room.

I could hear Master and another voice chatting and coming towards the wardrobe, Master asked me if i was enjoying my time inside i moaned angrily and felt the doors reefed open, it got very cold very quick feeling the fresh air hit my naked body.

The cable from my collar to the fixture was removed i felt Masters hands on me helping me up and out of the wardrobe.

Master lead me over to the bed where He placed me on my back and tied me down, He ordered me to suck the Guest “pat’s” cock without thought i did so promptly.

The position made it awkward to suck Pat as He is well hung and i couldn’t control rhythm or depth so i requested a change of position so that i could please O/our guest better and more satisfying, Master untied me and pushed me to my knees on the floor where i was guided to Pat’s cock once again where i promptly filled my mouth with his long thick cock and sucked it as deep as i could running my tongue along the shaft and poking the tip of my tongue into the eye of his cock until he was wet warm and juicy.

After a while of giving Pat oral Master asked Him if He would like to fuck me, Pat replied with a quick yes and i was moved and placed on my knees on the end of the hotel bed where i was positioned for a doggy style fucking.

THIS MADE ME VERY NERVOUS KNOWING PAT HAD A HUGE COCK AND I COULDNT BE ABLE CONTROL ANY OF THE DEPTH IN A DOGGY POSITION I KNEW IT WOULD HURT, AND I WAS RIGHT IT DID HURT BUT IN A GOOD WAY I WAS THRASHED AND IT WAS AWESOME BEING THE PIECE OF FUCK MEAT MASTER ENJOYS ME TO BE.

Pat rammed his long thick cock inside me and fucked me fast deep and hard it stung every time He pushed it right in but it is a pain i enjoy, Master climbed up and sat in front of me all the time while filming.

Master grabbed a chunk of my hair and guided my mouth over His cock and forced me to suck it holding my head down over His cock, i love having my head and hair held while sucking it makes me feel controlled and nasty.

I FELT MYSELF GET REAL WET ENJOYING BEING SUCH A DIRTY SLUT BEING USED BY TWO COCKS AT THE SAME TIME JUST PANTING AND SUCKING, MOANING AND SQUEALING OVER MASTERS COCK WHILE OUR GUEST’S COMPLETELY FILLED MY PUSSY.

After being throat fucked and thrashed doggy until both Master and Pat were satisfied i was turned around and forced to rim Pats arse until He was rock hard and ordered me to suck His cock again, i sucked Pats cock and licked His balls while Master messaged net guys seeing if anyone else wanted to use me His property that night.

AS PER USUAL MOST NET GUYS ARE A WASTE OF TIME AND EFFORT AS THEY ARE ALL TALK AND NO ACTION

Pat had me suck for ages He tried pushing my head down to see how deep i could go, i tried to deep throat but His cock was to thick to get all the way down my throat I HAD FUN TRYING THOUGH, by doing this i received a mouth full of pre cum and as per usual being the dirty little slut i am i showed it off and played with it for the camera.

Master called me a slut and a whore and humiliated me in front of our guest and decided i needed to be fucked again so Pat fucked me missionary while Master chocked me and slapped my face brutally while calling me nasty names Pats cock was rock hard He was enjoying every moment of me being man handled He loved fucking my dripping wet pussy as my muscles contracted while being chocked.

Master slapped at my breast hard whilst i was being fucked until pat pulled out and had me on the floor on my knees to suck him, Master demanded i rim Pat again i declined and said i didn’t want to Master shouted at me and i called the safe word so rimming was forgotten and i was then made to lick Pats balls as he masturbated over my porn.

Pat was really excited by my porn and came all over His stomach Master saw this and ordered me to lick the tip of his cock while he was coming, i know my Master likes it messy so i let all of the cum drip from my mouth until i was forced to clean up all of the cum.

Master told me to spit it all out over my breast and then to rub it in i did so as a good sub should. Pat had a shower and left.

Master then fucked me until i came and told me i had to sleep covered in cum as i was not given permission to shower.

i slept like a dirty little whore fucked by two men and smelling strongly of cum.

End of session.